Recovery redux

He is out. Bandaged and flailing a bit, surely feeling like he's been put back together backwards. I remember how that feels, if even a little bit.

Intubated again, back on the ventilator for a few days while he comes to. I'm told it went well. Now I go to sit with him, give him fingertips to grip, hope he can sense that I'm there.

Then off to Ben for skin-to-skin therapy. This morning, I need it more than he does.

Comments

[Eve]

Whew. Be well, Liam. What a strong boy you are.

Happy Kangarooing this morning Kate. :)

xo

[Chasinash]

SO glad that it went well. Nothing more to say than that. *HUGS*

[Leann]

This just sounds like pure hell. Get extra skin to skin time today.

I'm glad he's out and things went fine. He really is a strong little guy!

Just keep hanging on, it's a long road but you'll get there.

[JB]

Thinking of you and your family. Hang in there.

[m]

xoxoxo

[ann adams]

Still checking in and thinking about all of you.

He's a determined little guy isn't he. Our two pounder (now 11) was like that.

[Carol]

I wish you and your family all the best and strength - a lot of strength. I imagine that at times, you have put yourself together and felt and have succeeded in being strong for the boys, for yourself and your husband. But I am sure that any further surgical procedures tests that strength. Wishing Liam and all of you well.

[Jenn Brooks]

Go Liam go! Another hurdle cleared. It is great to her you could get some time with Ben to help you through it Still thinking of you all very often and sending positive thoughts your way.Keep strong!

[thordora]

sigh...you're so much stronger than I would ever be...

Thinking of you.

[christine]

So gald to hear the news. Enjoy your skin to skin...I'm thinking of you :) xoxox

[linda]

Just send all the ugly emotions here and we'll help you deal, this really is too much for one mama...Another day done, another day closer to recovery.

[Bon]

hold on to those little fingertips. :)

thinking of you.

[Kelly Falconer]

We love you Liam

[Erin]

thinking of you all and sending healing vibes ...

Erin in San Francisco

[mfk]

found you via sweetjuniper and now check in, oh, probably twice a day :). i am so gripped by your skill with words and your inspiring love for your boys, despite the awful situation. liam sounds like a tough little guy (they both do). enjoy the skin to skin, mama -

[Joanna]

SO glad he's out, Kate - did you know this procedure was to happen or was it a response to an emergency situation? I am thinking of you all -

[Rachael]

So glad to hear from you, Kate... just checking in on little Liam and glad to hear the news is positive.

Hugs.

[Kasie]

I just found your blog and wish so much that I had words to say. But I know that words just don't help. They don't take away the pain. I just want you to know that I'm not going to be some casual passerby who reads your story and goes on. Your family has touched my heart greatly and I will be keeping you all in my prayers.(((Hugs!)))

[Lisa George]

It's so good to hear it went well. He's a tough little guy, that Liam!

[Lauranne]

Hey Kate,Again, I'm at a loss for words. My heart is with you. You are amazing.I love you.Lauranne

[Ashley]

god your sons are just so damn strong.

just like their mama.

xox

[Anne]

Oh good luck, good luck, fingers crossed for your babies.

[twin chronicles]

Kate, I'm sorry I haven't commented in awhile. Even without comments please know you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I pray for strength for Liam and Ben and you as well. Enjoy your snuggles with Ben. Liam knows you are there with him.

Much love,ashley

[amanda]

Still here, still hoping and wishing you find whatever you need to get you through each moment.

[Jeanettte]

love, love, mamalove.

[Trasi]

Wish I had something I could say that would make you feel better. I don't think there is, especially not from a stranger on the internet. But the desire is there, and I'll keep wishing/praying for you to continue to have the strength to go through what lies ahead, without losing yourself. And I wish it didn't have to be so hard for you.

[slouching mom]

Oh, that is good. Another hurdle crossed.

[tulip]

We are sending you and Liam love and good wishes. More hugs to Ben, Justin and Evan. Strength to you all.

[Bec]

I'm glad it went well. I hope he recovers quickly and is off the vent soon.

[Leigh]

Liam, sending you and your brother our continued love.Kate, always radiating peace your way.XOXO

[Her Bad Mother]

Be well. Press skin to skin. Am thinking of you.

[Marie T]

Prayers for recovery -- as I got through the prayer for Liam, I was covered in goosebumps - sending that postive energy to you all.

[alison]

God bless you, baby Liam.

[KYouell]

"Then off to Ben for skin-to-skin therapy. This morning, I need it more than he does."



I know how that feels. I spent the time I was pregnant with my daughter afraid to hope that she wouldn't have any of her brother's problems. I had her by scheduled c-section and stayed in the hospital the full 4 days that insurance was required to cover just so that we could have that concentrated time together. I hardly put her down except to pee, shower and eat. The nurses kept asking me if I was sure I wanted her in the room that whole time. After having my son room-in and then be taken away, you bet I did!

I'm working very hard on getting past the guilt that I feel for my daughter's good health. Skin-to-skin during nursing is part of me taking care of me and helps me to heal. I'm glad to see that you realize how good this therapy can be for the mom.

Prayers and hugs.

[mo-wo]

Thinking of you all. Thanks for taking the time to update us. Keep yourself well. Babies need that most.

You are a GREAT Mom.

[Rebecca James]

still thinking of you and your boys, Kate. Glad Liam's operation went well.

[Liz]

'Atta boy, Liam! Very relieved to hear the operation went well. Enjoy those cuddles, mama.

[Andrea]

So good to hear that he came out of surgery well!

[Isabel]

new to your blog and wanting you to know how much i am thinking of you and sending you courage and love.your honesty is beautiful.

[Kinuk]

C'mon Liam!

[Karen Hunter]

I am visiting one of my children in Portland but checking on the progress of your little ones each day. As I wish that my grown adult daughter would move back home, I think how selfish I am. Your wish is for your tiny Liam to grow up and live in another place so you can visit him. Still sending love, hugs, only positive thoughts and lots of prayer.

[Nina]

This is my first time visting your blog...I just read about your family on BeebeeMod.Just want you to know that my prayers are with you, as I have been where you are right now.My beautiful miracle Jade, who is now 4, spent the first 120 days of her life in the NICU. She was born with many complications as a result of a rare condition know as VACTERL Association. She had to have 5 major surgeries before coming home-one of which was open-hear surgery at 2 months. She has since had 3 more. There were many times that we came close to losing her. I just want to encouarge you. Although it has defintely been a tough road, there is light on the other side of the tunnel.She has some minor things that we still have to deal with, but in the last 2 years she has made remarkable progress and if you saw her on the street you wouldn't even know.This experience will be life changing--but for the better. You will learn so much about patience, who you are as a person, the resiliency of children, not sweating the small stuff and to just appreciate the beauty of life.You will be in my thoughts.

Lots of Love, Nina

[Lisa]

Always thinking of you guys, but especially so today. Hugs & penguin huddles!

[Lisa]

Always thinking of you guys, but especially so today. Hugs & penguin huddles!

[Jason Dufair]

Grip, fingers, grip! Feel, skin, feel!

[lilysmum]

Hi I just found you through BeeBee Mode. How funny Im Canadian I live in the UK and found you from an American blog... Anyway I just wanted to say hang in there. Your days must have taken on such a funny shape, a rollercoaster of hope and despair. We lost our first child, our son when he was born at 24 weeks . Happily we now also have our daughter who although threatened to arrive at 26 weeks hung on to 34... so we know both the happy and the sad of NICU. Im not really a religious person but your family is in my prayers and Im hoping all the best for your beautiful little fellows.

[Emily]

Lots of love and peace to your family. Thinking of all of you.

[Joanna]

Checking in tonight, Kate - hope your little fighter and his brother are doing well...thinking of Evan too --

[molly]

I just saw this line from another blog and thought of you:

One doesn't discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time.

May your new lands be sunny and bright; filled with the laughter of three boys who know that their shore is you.

[Rob Girard]

Katie, Justin, Ben and Liam....Every firefighter is waiting and hoping for the best for all of you.I'm continually showered by "updates?" by concerned guys who don't want to intrude, so I'm emailing you both today to let you know we're here for you still....in spirit/support.Our silence means only respect for your situation, that, and possibly the knowledge that words are immeasurably inadequate. But nonetheless, we're here if you need us...always.HRM Firefighters